By: Marc McMahon
I am who I say I am if I wasn’t then why would I say I am. I think Eminem said that best. But it holds true for me as well I mean after all there is in my opinion no better judge of one’s character then how well they keep their word. If you say you are going to do something simply do it or lose all credibility, well with me at least. Anyways the reason I am writing today is that sometimes I think people tend to see me and Recovery Unsensored as way more than I or it is. I mean I am and always have been just as the about this site page describes. Just a man/addict in recovery sharing his experiences with all who care to read it in hopes, that it might help somebody along the way.
I say this because I often am asked would you like to improve your sales Marc or grow your sales team, or how would you like to market your product? I am like huh? A sales what, did you say team? Excuse me but I have no team it is and has always been just God and me here. I do not need a sales team or support staff I have the dream team already, God! I mean seriously and the best part, its free. Occasionally I pay to drive extra readers to my site in hopes of retaining some permanent followers and I hire a company to keep track of my site’s analytics and keep its SEO practices up to speed because I am clueless at that part but other than that it’s just me and my message.
Why I Am Here Writing
I wrote an article similar to this about a year ago and felt the time to revisit the topic was now because folks sometimes do not know your truth unless you tell them. I just wanted to write a short piece explaining that so maybe folks will quit asking me those questions at least so often anyway. I also wanted to touch base with any new readers as to why again I am even here writing in the first place. It is always good to keep your purpose or mission clear in peoples minds so they know your purpose and motives in doing what you do. So for me and this site, they would be this.
I created this site to share my heart, to come to terms with the nightmare of 22 years I had been going through. To try and figure out how my loving God could allow me to suffer so and by coming here and writing, and sharing, and writing some more I figured it out. Or at least enough for me. The Good Book says that what satan intended for my harm God will use for good if I love him and I thought ok I surely do so what now. My writing. I found that by sharing my past experiences with a sheet of paper I found piece. I found that by putting down how I feel, or how my addiction made me feel in the past helped others too.
Sharing Is Power
I found that by sharing barriers were being broken down. Stigmas reduced, conversations started and that people found peace, comfort, tears, and understanding in my words. They also find joy, hope, and love, and for a desperate few like I was my words can bring hope to all because they are filled with the real power of truth and love! Love conquers all my friends and is one of the strongest weapons we as humans possess on this earth or anywhere else for that matter.
I just want to end this short note with one more thought for the week. If you are still struggling with your addiction, your disease, or monster if you will I want you to know something. If you hang on and don’t give up the fight before your H.P. rescues you, you will be o.k. It may not be comfortable, or fun, and it may be downright humiliating at times making you want to die but don’t! You Will get through this you gotta trust me on this one. Three suicide attempts, 8 Psych units, 10 inpatient treatments and 22 years later and I did. So you can too.
Don’t Beat Yourself Up
If you are feeling bad like maybe you just did something no one else could have possibly stooped so low to do and it makes you want to die, don’t because I promise whatever you did has been done before. If I had not done it and got through it and I probably have (please just ask I’ll tell you, I was a miserable piece of crap in my addiction I stooped as low as you could so please don’t be ashamed I don’t judge, period. I can’t I was as bad as the get believe that!)
It has taken me a long time to come to terms with some of the things I have done to others but a year later I have realized one very important thing and you should to this is crucial I think for us. Although our behavior in our addiction was far from becoming an officer we in recovery are no longer that person. That person and how he/she thinks will slowly drift away as the new you emerges. You have a beautiful journey ahead of you of self-discovery and love. If you need support holler Ill walk with you. If you need to talk, holler ill talk with you. That is how we do it, #Together. Have a blessed day you all and once again TYSM for sharing in my journey, I Love You!
About the Author: Marc is a 48-year-old Author, Speaker, and Soldier in a war to loosen the grasp that Substance Abuse has on our society. He is a Father, Son, and friend to all those seeking refuge from this incorrigible disease. Marc resides in the beautiful Pacific Northwest where he enjoys, writing, hiking, and kicking the disease of addiction in the teeth, every chance he gets. As Marc always likes to say, “be blessed, my friends!”