Relapsed Back to Life



BY: Marc McMahon


I forgot how beautiful life was sober, I forgot that the sound of the birds became louder, the sun shined brighter, and there were flowers in front of me this entire time that I never even noticed were there. I forgot where I had come from, oh how quickly I forgot. I am so grateful I was given another chance at this new life, that the powers that be seen fit to deem me worthy of another attempt to live life to it’s fullest and pursue my dreams.

So grateful for this I can hardly explain the level of my gratitude to the universe for allowing me another try, it is not guaranteed you do realize this don’t you? When we make the choice as addicts in recovery to go back to using again that is the last choice we have in the matter.

The next one comes only from God on high, and that is whether or not we will be allowed the privilege of returning to our lives as we once knew it and then are able to give sobriety another chance. When I look at it that way my level of gratitude grows, exponentially!

I am beside myself this morning with an overwhelming sense of gratefulness to my higher power for giving me not only this opportunity. But for all the past opportunities I have been given that allowed my hard head to learn enough to desire to want to give sobriety another try this time. Thank you, Jesus, for giving me the desire to fight, to keep on keeping on when quitting life presents itself as the easier choice, God I thank you!

                                                             God, I thank you!                                             cross-man-praying-on-hill-big.jpg

Not many people you all, go straight to the deepest part of hell and live to tell about it. Not many people are fortunate enough to have stared Satan straight in the eyes and been allowed to walk away. Not many people can separate the trauma that those experiences can have on your mind from their daily lives enough, to still be able to function in society at large, but we have.

We as recovering addicts to whatever substance or disorder know this to be true and that leads me to only one real conclusion. Someone or something, somewhere out there in the universe loves us beyond what our human minds can comprehend. We in the midst of our defiance to life were given the chance to erase the chalkboard of our past and start anew.

Just think of how many of us do not make it out alive on a daily basis, yet we were spared!! That tells me we are special, we are a chosen group of people. That we have been destined for greatness, preordained to do good and created with a specific plan and a purpose for our lives.

This should make you feel special my friends, loved and strong and it is my prayer that you do. If you don’t just give my prayer a moment to work and expect it because it’s there waiting for you to simply reach up and grab it.

A gift of love, sent from above, from his heart to yours.


About the Author: Marc is a 48-year-old Author, Speaker, and Soldier in a war to loosen the grasp that Substance Abuse has on our society. He is a Father, Son, and friend to all those seeking refuge from this incorrigible disease. Marc resides in the beautiful Pacific Northwest where he enjoys, writing, hiking, and kicking the disease of addiction in the teeth, every chance he gets. As Marc always likes to say, “be blessed, my friends!




One thought on “Relapsed Back to Life

  1. Thanks for the message. Brother in-arms, and in name!

    I forget how good I have it because I’m sober often. I can relate to that. I need people out there doing the thing to remind me constantly to be grateful.

    Have a great week!


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