You know I have been racking my brain lately trying to get something to come out of me and onto paper that was positive, uplifting, and full of hope. But every time I have sat down to write this past month all I find coming out of me has been darkness. Not darkness that I am giving to you, but the darkness that is carefully being exhumed by the memory grave diggers of my mind who are bravely trying to remove memories of pains from the past so I can slowly begin to heal.
It is funny how this writing thing goes most of the time though. Most of the time I can’t write when I want to and write to much when I don’t feel like doing it. So today as I am checking my Recovery Unsensored Facebook Page not thinking about writing or anything other than just reaching out to see how others are doing when I opened a message that was sent to me by someone online who was reaching out for support. I would like to share a good portion of that conversation with you all as it not only sparked the idea for this article but it is also one of the main reasons I do what I do today with my writing and this website.
Who my conversation was with exactly is not important. What is, is the fact that two recovering addicts were able to reach out and connect online here without even knowing each other. That there is a place that exists in this world where one can remain as anonymous as they care to yet still be able to reach out and get the help that they need. God not only invented the internet but he uses it in ways most would have never dreamed he would. To allow one who has walked through the storm the ability to walk back into the storm, this time stronger, in order to help pull another through. This is done by sharing not only our experiences but most importantly, God’s Love! Here is that actual Facebook conversation I hope you find it as motivating and uplifting as the two of us did at the time.
Here it is…………..“Wow, I’m just here feeling miserable and then appears your story somehow… I’m a 55 years old female, Mexican and always failing… always feeling rejected, and then I make more bad choices to keep that path?… always thinking God can heal me… but when?”
Hey sweetie, sorry to hear you are having a tough time with things but I know your pain and I know what it feels like to want to change but for some reason not be able too. It’s scary, and lonely, and just not a very nice place to be yet I find myself there often. How do we make it stop my friend I am not exactly sure but this much I do know. Even though God has not for whatever reason removed this thorn from our sides we have to keep our faith. Our hope lies in him! In the fact that he and he alone is the only one who can help us because he is.
Look at it my friend as a testing of your faith so to speak to see if we are worthy of the prize at the end of the tunnel and we both know we are. It is imperative I believe that we do not lose our faith no matter what, no matter how far God may seem from us we HAVE to keep Believing in Him! If for nothing else than scripture promises that “What the enemy intended for our harm, God will turn around and use for good. For those who love God and are called according to his purpose” That right there is a promise from God to us and I hold onto it like my life depends on it because in a way it does. Stay strong my recovering friend and this to shall pass I promise.
Stay close, if need be message my Facebook homepage too if you need support. Or you can reach out to just about anyone who comments on posts on my page and they will support you too. There are a bunch of people out there just like you and me struggling and I have learned this much. “Alone We Don’t Stand A Chance, But Together, We Can Change The World” I hoped that helped you some my friend and feel free to reach out to me anytime and I will respond as soon as I get the time to do so. Until then keep your eyes fixed on the heavens and may the Good Lord grant you all the good things he has in store for you, I Love You!
“How beautiful the way The Lord is using you and manifesting thru you… you have been touch by Him!!! I’m praying the same…thank you”
YES! That’s my girl, that is the spirit of the Good Lord in you talking, praise him for that. Thank you for your kind words we can struggle down this shitty road together and at the end, we will call it nothing short of Our beautiful Journey. Stay blessed my friends.
That for me is what this online recovery thing is all about. Being able to reach out to another and connect on a level that few can. To be able to not only share experiences but the love of God with one another as well. To have a safe, non-judgemental environment, where we can get the help we need, without having to feel the guilt, shame, and overwhelming stigma, society has placed on those who suffer from a Substance Abuse Disorder. To be able to learn, heal, grow, and love, in rich, fertile soil. So we can blossom much like a rose petal would in the early morning sun. Thank you all for putting up with my rambling today and may the Good Lord Bless you all, I Love You!
About The Author: Marc is a 50-year-old Author, Speaker, and Soldier in a war to loosen the grasp that Substance Abuse has on our society. He is a Father, Son, and friend to all those seeking refuge from this incorrigible disease. Marc resides in the beautiful Pacific Northwest where he enjoys, writing, hiking, and kicking the disease of addiction in the teeth, every chance he gets. As Marc always likes to say, “be blessed, my friends!”